Saturday, February 11, 2023

It's Going to Take Some Time

 


My sweet sister passed away last week.  She was my friend, protector from all evil, and when we were little we were always thinking of ways to get in to trouble.  Besides the trouble part we stayed close friends as we got older.  

Grief...I can only explain it like I feel it again.  This has happened before of course I'm getting older and more people I know have passed.  Close family, close friends.... have gone on to a better place.  Leaving that empty space behind.  You think each time I'll handle it better next time but...

Since she has passed,  I feel brave one minute then I crash.  I'll explain it like it is for me right now.  So, you know the worst roller coaster you can go on at your favorite amusement park?  Yep, that big tall looking monster.  That's the one.  You get on it and you climb that hill very slowly and you get to the top and you think you can conquer anything.  Then you flying down that hill faster and you think you will never stop.  Of course then it flops you around curves and hills and valleys.   It's seems to last forever and then it starts again.  

I'm on that stupid coaster now.  I know it will get better and she will always be missed.  I'm just not to that point yet.

I'm in to the should've's ...yep should have went to visit sooner.  Why didn't I call that Sunday?  That sort of thing.  Then I remember that I feel I was there at the right time and I couldn't have stopped what happened in the end.   

Grieve is hard thing and takes time.   She will always be missed and be in my heart forever.  My very best friend that I could tell anything.  She would always listen.   Right now I think Oh God who will I talk to now.  

I know I'll see her again but until then, it will seem like forever.


Thank you everyone for your prayers.  You are so very nice and kind.






14 comments:

Lana said...

My heart is broken for you. I will be praying.

Practical Parsimony said...

So sorry about your loss of your sister.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Praying for you.
Jo

Cheryl Kimbley said...

So very sorry for your loss. Describing the roller coaster was a good analogy. Keep those wonderful memories close and celebrate her every day in some way. Hugs

Peggy said...

I am so sorry. I have gone thru this twice. I will pray for peace in your heart and comfort as you remember her.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry for your loss.

Little Penpen said...

💔 so sorry

Amy said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

So sad to hear about your loss. All my prayers for you to heal. Hilogene in Az

Kathy said...

I am so sorry. Sending hugs and prayers for comfort.

Nancy said...

Oh Vickie-So sorry to read this. Condolences to you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Vickie all I can say is hugs all the way from Australia and you will be in our prayers.

You are so very blessed to have a best friend and confidant in your sister.

Lorna xoxo

Chef Owings said...

Prayers for you and yours.

Vickie @Vickie's Kitchen and Garden said...

Thank you everyone for your prayers. You are so very nice and kind.